I Can Finally Breathe and Enjoy the Freedom!

I learned about alabastron from a stranger. I met this lady outside a psychiatrist’s office, and we began taking about life and she suggested the program to me. She spoke so passionately about the program and how it saved her and restored her marriage. A few weeks later a coworker sent me a poster on WhatsApp. I purposed to attend the first class; the interesting part is it coincided with my mom’s nine year anniversary since her death.

  I learned about alabastron from a stranger. I met this lady outside a psychiatrist’s office, and we began taking about life and she suggested the program to me. . People saw me as this confident and well put together person yet I was afraid that I would be discovered to be a fraud. Before joining Alabastron, I was nervous. I was afraid of exposing my hurts and secrets for fear of judgement. People saw me as this confident and well put together person yet I was afraid that I would be discovered to be a fraud. In the first class, I remember being tasked to trust the process. Then I thought for the longest time I had tried doing things my way and I was tired of barely holding on to life. During this time, I was depressed, sad, and holding on to a string of toxic habits and relationships. I felt lost and the woman I had hoped to be was just but a distant vision.

During the program, I discovered a lot about my self and my relationship with God. I started unraveling some of my coping mechanisms. I was bare and vulnerable. It was uncomfortable at first but as time went by, I kept reminding myself that the woman I envision myself to be would cost me my ego, pride and was worth working hard for. I tackled the hardest part, which was my toxic relationship with my father. I learnt how to forgive him and love him. I realized a great deal of my negative patterns were because I carried the hurt in my heart. I discovered that I had gotten comfortable with pain so the thought of letting it go scared me because it was part of my false identity.

As I went on with the program, I began connecting with myself. My mistakes were no longer holding me back because I brought them to light. I had the power all along; all I needed was to let God direct my steps. I began standing up for my self more at work and with my friends. Slowly I began letting go of the toxic relationships in my life and that left me with more room to work on myself. [...]

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