Feeling Cheated by God?
- by Irene Kamau (Miale Season #3)
When I was in my last year of college, my mum died. She passed on after a long and devastating experience with cancer. Honestly speaking, something in me died. My love for God died. My faith in God that He Heals, He is Almighty and He cares was buried along with my mum.
I grew up as a Christian girl. I was active in Sunday -School and church youth ministry. So, I think it is safe to say I always had a warm relationship with God. But after my mother demise, I felt so cheated by God.
“God, why would you allow for my mum to die after I had prayed so much?” I longed to hear the answer to this question. “God you let her die, yet you knew she was my only parent?” How now do I live alone?
God, why would you allow for my mum to die, after I had prayed so much?” I longed to hear the answer to this question.
These unanswered questions made me believe that even if I pray, God is still God, He will do whatever He wants to do. Therefore, no amount of praying will change his mind. Most times, I did not bother to pray, because after all, He will still do what He wants to do. He is like that you know.
Fast forward, to when I went through a devastating and harrowing divorce. My husband was a staunch Christian. He was closest to God yet he cheated on me. To add salt on the wound, he managed to convince the world that I was a bad woman and two months down the line, he remarried.
Again, I prayed and cried to God. I even decided to fast for God to keep my marriage. I fasted for one whole week whilst breastfeeding my 6 months old son. Unfortunately, at the end of the fasting period, we got separated and then divorced. This experience rubberstamped my belief that God does what He wants no matter how much I pray.
I finally understood that regardless of the happenings in my life, God actually loves me.
My healing began when I took the Renewing Self Program. This was like a scratch into the wound I had in my spiritual space. I volunteered to guide ten seasons later. It was during this period it dawned on me that I had not dealt with the deep-rooted belief system I had against God. This led to my decision to enroll for Miale season three. I dedicated this time to deeply learn more about God. Perhaps, it would improve my relationship with God.
To my surprise, this class exceeded my expectation!! I had set myself up for a new journey of understanding God and re-working my relationship with God. This program enabled me change my belief system.
To my surprise, this class exceeded my expectation!! I had set myself up for a new journey of understanding God and re-working my relationship with Him.
I finally understood that regardless of the happenings in my life, God actually loves me. I also had a deep understanding that God is more interested in being my friend. Since then, I have really grown in my spiritual confidence and have a much deeper and secure relationship with God.
I recommend Miale to any woman who longs to enjoy an authentic relationship with God. Imagine you don’t have to be or do anything extra-ordinary to enjoy that. Just be available. Join the class and you will experience this for yourself.