It is a class where we get to delve in to the struggles, clutter, disappointments of our spiritual life and emerge with praises, victories and the joy in God.

Feeling Cheated by God?
- by Irene Kamau (Miale Season #3)

    When I was in my last year of college, my mum died. She passed on after a long and devastating experience with cancer. Honestly speaking, something in me died. My love for God died. My faith in God that He Heals, He is Almighty and He cares was buried along with my mum.

I grew up as a Christian girl. I was active in Sunday -School and church youth ministry. So, I think it is safe to say I always had a warm relationship with God. But after my mother demise, I felt so cheated by God.

“God, why would you allow for my mum to die after I had prayed so much?” I longed to hear the answer to this question. “God you let her die, yet you knew she was my only parent?” How now do I live alone?   God, why would you allow for my mum to die, after I had prayed so much?” I longed to hear the answer to this question.

These unanswered questions made me believe that even if I pray, God is still God, He will do whatever He wants to do. Therefore, no amount of praying will change his mind. Most times, I did not bother to pray, because after all, He will still do what He wants to do. He is like that you know.

Fast forward, to when I went through a devastating and harrowing divorce. My husband was a staunch Christian. He was closest to God yet he cheated on me. To add salt on the wound, he managed to convince the world that I was a bad woman and two months down the line, he remarried.

Again, I prayed and cried to God. I even decided to fast for God to keep my marriage. I fasted for one whole week whilst breastfeeding my 6 months old son. Unfortunately, at the end of the fasting period, we got separated and then divorced. This experience rubberstamped my belief that God does what He wants no matter how much I pray.

My healing began when I took the Renewing Self Program. This was like a scratch into the wound I had in my spiritual space. I volunteered to guide ten seasons later. It was during this period it dawned on me that I had not dealt with the deep-rooted belief system I had against God. This led to my decision to enroll for Miale season three. I dedicated this time to deeply learn more about God. Perhaps, it would improve my relationship with God.

To my surprise, this class exceeded my expectation!! I had set myself up for a new journey of understanding God and re-working my relationship with God. This program enabled me change my belief system.   To my surprise, this class exceeded my expectation!! I had set myself up for a new journey of understanding God and re-working my relationship with Him.

I finally understood that regardless of the happenings in my life, God actually loves me. I also had a deep understanding that God is more interested in being my friend. Since then, I have really grown in my spiritual confidence and have a much deeper and secure relationship with God.

I recommend Miale to any woman who longs to enjoy an authentic relationship with God. Imagine you don’t have to be or do anything extra-ordinary to enjoy that. Just be available. Join the class and you will experience this for yourself.

    At the beginning of the year, I decided that I wanted to work on my spirituality. I had a number of questions and worried that plagued my mind. Why was I Christian? I know precious little about God, how do I introduce Him to my kids? How can I be identified as a Christian without having to punctuate every sentence with a verse from the bible?

I had never participated in any program whose intent was to build my spirituality apart from attending church, nothing. So I was apprehensive. I had heard of people’s experiences at revivals and encounters and I half expected that there would be walking on water and levitation at some point.

It was nothing like that. Through each class I found a gentle and gradual revelation of who God is. This was often accompanied by a face to face meeting with me. The most challenging part for me was to take a good look at myself, acknowledge who I was seeing and stop running from what I saw. The most fulfilling part for me was applying the tools in the program to establish and build a relationship with God.

If at any time in your life you have realized that God was not at the center of your life. If you have ever asked yourself how do I place Him where He rightfully belongs?

If you have ever thought I am a Christian but why do I feel uncomfortable and even unwelcome around other Christians, take the Miale class and build your spiritualconfidence.

    I am failing at everything; I don’t like the way God made me. The Lord is not helping me. My service is worthless. My gifting is useless. My growth is hopeless.

This was me before I came to Miale in a room full of darkness. And slowly Miale has taught me that I must go to the window and open the curtains to let the light of Christ break into the darkness of my soul.

I have learnt that when I am lost in the maze of confusion and chaos within, the best thing I can do is soak in the sunshine of God’s truth. I have learnt to go to the word, hear the voice of the Lord. I have learnt to spend more time looking to Christ than to myself and my faults and only in Him have I found myself.