Packing has never been one of my favorite activities, even when it’s a holiday that I have been looking forward to; it is the one thing that fills me with dread and some anxiety. I still don’t understand why I haven’t conquered this irrational fear of packing because most of my childhood, my family moved to a new country every three or four years. We lived in various countries including Swaziland, Switzerland, Zimbabwe, Ethiopia, Sierra Leone, Malawi and Nigeria. That certainly involved a considerable amount of packing and unpacking many boxes!

In April 2015, my fear of packing reached an all-time high as I had to face the daunting task of packing up the home which I had lived in for nine years in Kampala (Uganda) and move to Nairobi which, though not very far, was still away from family and my familiar routines.

I joined my current workplace in April 2007 as Country Manager for Uganda, Rwanda and Burundi based at the Kampala office. As such, I was in charge of commercial activities for those three markets. This was my first management position and a turning point in my career. Previously I had worked for an international airline in Uganda and so the same industry partners I dealt with then were the clients I was handling in the new company. [...]

I have broken free from the guilt of the skeletons in my closet and moved forward in life.

I heard about Alabastron about five years ago. A close friend of mine had invited me to the Open Day. I felt I couldn’t afford it but I knew it is what I needed. Later I began following the program My Unspoken closely. I wished I had the courage to share my pain as I watched the women share

After carrying the weight of the decisions I had made that turned out to be mistakes, I had a longing to be free. I wanted to separate my past from the future I longed for. So, I began attending church. Unfortunately, I felt judged so I did not share my truth. I was at the lowest I have ever been in my life. Ouch! Sometimes I would catch myself thinking death would be a better option. This time I was not ready to do therapy again.

My life was stagnant. I was struggling with my social life. I was living in solace. Deep down I longed to share my truth without fear or judgment. I was feeling defeated. I began lacking confidence in myself. I was carrying guilt and shame from the decisions I had made in my life. [...]

Have you ever suffered too much pain in your life that no cover up could hide it? Does your pain overwhelm you that you cannot escape from it? Alabastron enabled me overcome my pain and become a burner!

When my sister -in-law spoke to me about Alabastron, I was in a bad place. It was evident for her from our first interaction yet I had not interacted with her for a long time. She carefully followed up with me to take the program. She welcomed me to go for the Open Day. God bless her soul!

I vividly remember that night when she called me to request that we mentor young girls along their career path. On that night, I had separated with the father to my son. It was painful, hurtful to say the least! This pain I tried to cover up but it was greater than my cover ups.

During the Renewing Self Program, I learned about the root cause of my pain. It dawned on me since childhood I had faced emotional abuse. Unequipped to deal with it, I hid the pain. This led me to have insecurities in my life. I was insecure about my identity and about my decisions in life. This made me develop low self-esteem. [...]

I was burnt out physically and emotionally when my sister shared with me about Renewing Self Program. I was constantly depressed and anxious. I was in a place where I needed a solution to this problem.

“A friend of mine who did the program completely changed.” My sister assured me. “So, she has suggested you take the program, it could be the answer you are searching for.” She concluded.

My devastation sourced from my career life. I neither loved it nor did I get the job I badly wanted. I felt unaccomplished. I kept wondering what’s wrong with my life. Then amidst all this, my brother died from an unfortunate event. His demise took a toll on everybody in our family. I moved back home to support my parents.

I did everything in my power to get a solution to fix this issue in my life. I would read articles, books, listen to podcast but they all had one similarity. They surely pointed out my issue but never had a lasting solution to it! Later, it got worse. I would either not take food for days or take too much at once. This led me to begin visiting the psychiatrist. Ouch!! [...]

One of the core human need is security. In each engagement an individual has in life, this need can either be met or denied. Once this need is met then a human being feels safe and fulfilled. The lack of it however leads to discomfort and uncertainty in life. For some it causes confusion, withdrawal and lack of self-motivation. Tina's story of Alabastron was not any different because she found her job a security thus its lack therefore left her scared to face life.

“I would not stand the thought of being out of work.” Tina reveals. When my contract ended in April 2019, I was lost, anxious and confused. One day as I was having tea with my neighbor, she mentioned Alabastron. After the sharing we had. I thought it was a nice idea that I take the program.

I chose to attend the marathon class because I had time and I was eager to reinvent myself. I am a Christian. I read the Bible and listen to summons online. I also read a lot of Christian books and self-help books. My struggle about my worth has been real despite these self-prescriptions I had on myself. This deep rooted belief was so evident in my life such that if something good happened to me, I would intentionally sell myself short. [...]