Wow! I Love my life! But it wasn't always like that...
I came to Alabastron feeling, old, used, confused and lost. Oh yes! I had lost myself a long time ago. I must confess that if someone asked me how my life was, my standard response was, "I have no idea where my life went without me".

I had been hurt so much, that I got used to it and pain became my daily constant companion. I no longer felt anything. I was dead inside. I had become an angry and irritable woman, always on combat mode. I often had frequent crying outbursts, feeling sorry for myself. My main mode of communication was shouting especially at those closest to me. Nothing mattered in my life anymore. I had reached the end. My life was "mathosh" and I felt like trash.

One may wonder how I survived. Well, I had a perfect mask of miss good two shoes. At my work place, I employed every unqualified personnel, so that "I could take care of them". I felt that it was my duty to "help" them, so I ended up doing all their work for them due to their incompetence, yet I was paying them for it.

I had just fallen out of a relationship with a man that we had known each other for over 5 years. Two years after into the relationship, we were blessed with a son.

Just like any other relationship I was hoping for a settlement and having a son made me sure that it was going to happen. Questions were asked (society expectations) and I made excuses and even lied for him, he made no efforts but I was in love (so I thought). At that point of my life I got to learn that he was still in a relationship with his ex and they had a child who was even younger than my son.

My heart was shattered, I was heartbroken and my world just collapsed. I was slowly sinking into depression. I was angry, I was mad... I reacted very harshly to my own family (my son included). Ironically, I continued to make excuses for him, lie for him and put up a strong happy face before the world. Inside me was a walking shell of my old self. I shared with a friend of mine Irene about my issues and she told me about the Alabastron. At this point I had lost myself completely and I needed to find me. [...]

When I first heard about Alabastron (through my church -Mavuno Kampala), I was skeptical yet curious at the same time. After 15 years working in the corporate world, I have done my fair share of courses with the more recent ones particularly targeted at women in leadership. So it was with a certain level of arrogance fuelled by curiosity, that I enrolled and attended one of the catch up sessions since I had missed the open day. After the first class I realized that this was like no other course I had done.

By nature, I am a leader and I thrive on focusing on others both at work and in my personal life. As a first born child I have always had that sense of responsibility for my younger ones instilled in me so now, having to look inward and start to work on myself was a huge challenge. The topics covered were very significant and touched me on a very deep level as I had alot of things buried deep which I now needed to confront and overcome. I realised that my usual excuses of being too busy or not having time were no longer valid...I had to face my demons and change alot of negative behaviours that had become the norm in my life. [...]

I heard about Alabastron through My colleague at the office but also had seen the program on TV some years back and I really liked it and wished I was the one up there. For many years I was battling with, rejection, unforgiveness and over the years have read many books I have volumes of them on forgiving and loving again, healing emotional, damaged heart, your rejection is showing up and many more but nothing worked, I have even gone to a counselor but I still go back to the old self.

Having been rejected by 3 men at the point where the relationship is grown and almost getting married, having a mother that I was not getting along for many years, losing a job and had to discontinue school because of that and just a few months before I joined the class, dealing with a divorce it was too much weight on my shoulders. This made me bitter, angry to self and others, and I even started drinking alcohol secretly and dating a non-Christian (yet I was a believer) even before the divorce was over. [...]

Early this year, I decided to work on myself. I was tired of feeling tired and empty inside. I wanted to make sense out of my life. I had a very negative outlook towards life and my life was mainly driven by fear. All the decisions and actions I took were driven by all kinds of fear. I had read so many self-help books on how to transform one's life but I never felt the impact they had in my life. I knew something was amiss but I did not know what it was and how to address it.

I had heard of Alabastron some years back through ‘My unspoken’ a TV program which aired on one of the local TV stations in 2013. I never really got to follow the production but it got me curious. I then started my search on Google about Alabastron and read any article I could lay my hands on regarding the program. I did not want to waste my time and I had always been skeptical about transformational programs.
I thought Alabastron was just one of those feel good, self-help women group meetings. But something kept on urging me to do their program. Despite my skepticism, I enquired from the team and enrolled but at the back of my mind I was telling myself I would drop out if it turned out to be what I suspected. [...]